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thomas’ departure has put this giant gloomy umbrella over my head. i’m trying to adjust. however, i have to admit..i had a lot of fun last night. carol and i decided to go to live and went to predrink at flying saucer. prior to that…we wanted to go to slainte’s but somehow went into shay o’ conners….thinking that it was slaintes..but it wasn’t. we’re cool like that.

fish bowls are great! they just need to be taken early…otherwise you have to scramble to finish. it tasted like gummy bears.

i have more to say but i’m too lazy. so, yada yada yada..this and that.

these past couple of days have been emotionally draining. i don’t think i’ve ever had to deal with maintaining a relationship from afar…aside from my best friends. and now another best friend is leaving me. i’m unsure as to how strong i’m going to be or what the outcome will be like…all i know is how scared i am. after seeing so many failed attempts by others, it’s just hindering my ability to be positive about the whole situation. everything is just changing so fast…it’s nerve wrecking.

time to be a big girl….baby steps….

le sigh

this quarter, i decided to revive my piano skills and take private lessons with a music professor. i’m quite excited and everyone knows that i would totally major in music…but unfortunately i don’t want to take the risk of possibly making a horrible salary. i say that only because during my peak of playing piano (middle-high school) i was not training adequately due to debate and other extracurriculars (i know i’m a nerd)…i ended up dropping piano upon my entrance into college….so, my skills are not up to par…which would not enable me to become an exceptional pianist….exceptional meaning big baller status.

anyways, i chose to do chopin’s nocturne in e flat major as my recital piece…and she got to choose a piece for me (mozart’s sonata in c minor k.457). gawdddd…it is incredibly BORING. sonatas are ALWAYS boring.

i know that every pianist has to train and learn the lesser known pieces…..but really…i cannot stand it. darn you mozart.

and why does houston not have a pinkberry!!?? look at how divine this green tea yogurt looks. i hear there are some imitations somewhere. berripop and swirl. those are on my list! they better have green tea yogurt *shakes fist*

past several days consisted of not being able to breathe and lots of coughing/phlegm…not very attractive. i was also able to spend a lot of time with my dear michelle. everytime she’s in town, i seem to stuff my face more than usual. and i HAVE to post about our recent purchase…the victoria’s secret Biofit bra. initially, i thought it was just another marketing scam but we went to try it on and it’s the best bra i’ve ever owned! seriously!

i’ve also been thinking about a lot of things…..focusing on something in particular and this unrelenting surge of ‘what if’ scenarios came about. i hate what ifs.

but more importantly, i hate feeling like i might lose something important to me…as does everyone else i’m sure. i can say with absolute certainty that i’m a complete mess. i hate how unresolved issues come back to slap you in the face.

on an ending note–

having a headache for almost an entire day really sucks. not only that, but headaches + over thinking = major headache and constant misery…i need to stop thinking about things but i can’t help but wonder about the future…

although i am quite content with my life…there’s still something missing. i’m not sure what it is…but i’m going to keep thinking until i figure it out. and i suppose keeping a lot of small things that bother me to myself isn’t working in my favor. yeah..i basically lose at life.

i’d post pictures from this past weekend but my head hurts. so, once again…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY! hope you had a wonderful 25th birthday experience

over thinking can be detrimental