Julienguyener’s Weblog

i sort of miss having a….

actually, sometimes i just dislike being ….

i miss having a boyfriend. ugh. there, i said it.

accordtype TONY (10:45:18 PM): relationship = tears, drama, crying, happy, candy, ice cream, fatness, acne, etc.

JulieAnhNGUYENER (10:45:35 PM): youre right..

JulieAnhNGUYENER (10:45:51 PM): its a vicious cycle

accordtype TONY (10:46:30 PM): exactly

accordtype TONY (10:46:32 PM): it’s like

accordtype TONY (10:46:38 PM): going on superman at fiesta tx.

accordtype TONY (10:46:46 PM): u go up then go screaming down

accordtype TONY (10:46:54 PM): and then ur head goes bammm and then ur hair goes woosh

JulieAnhNGUYENER (10:46:58 PM): …

accordtype TONY (10:47:02 PM): and in the end when it’s over ur unsatisfied

JulieAnhNGUYENER (10:47:02 PM): what the

accordtype TONY (10:47:10 PM): bc the wait was too long

accordtype TONY (10:47:17 PM): my analogies need lots of work

accordtype TONY (10:47:23 PM): eventually ill say something profound

JulieAnhNGUYENER (10:47:27 PM): one day..

still-frames from halloween weekend. i actually didn’t go out this year but it was still really fun.

my manager at zake…apparently he’s the ‘momma geisha?’ he was rockin an extremely firm padded bra. scary.

i ♥ her

some of the ladies at zake

*shakes head*

went karaoke-ing after work. good times. didn’t really get to take many pictures at Genjis..and the ones that i do have..were taken by ariston -_-

womas

ariston

touching youuu-hoooo….touching meeeeeee

ever get those sudden urges to revisit songs of the past? i decided to take a trip down memory lane and listen to my old fobby songs. here are a few that i find quite amusing. it still amazes me that i used to find these songs extremely enjoyable…it’s unfortunate that i cannot understand 90% of the lyrics but the little snippets of broken english really make me laugh:

Boa – No.1
“you still my number oneeeee”

H.O.T. – Candy
” heh sah leh ee luh nah boh nee nuh muh nah noon buh shuh”

Utada Hikaru – First Love
“That last kiss tasted like tobacco”

K One – Seasons in the Sun
” now dat spwing is in de air”

♥ fob songs

missed out on each other now

With the weather change, I’ve been in a very whimsical mood. Even though I’ve discontinued taking piano lessons, I’m still trying to learn new songs. Lately, I’ve been attempting these X Japan songs. X Japan is an extremely popular rock band that’s equivalent to U2 here. If you haven’t heard any of their songs, I highly recommend listening to a few. Thomas introduced me to them awhile ago and I’ve been hooked ever since. The majority of their songs are ballads, which sound absolutely AMAZING on piano and acoustic guitar. I listen to their songs religiously..every night before I go to sleep. It has become a ritual of mine to play all of their songs while preparing to drift into a deep sleep or even a nap.

this sudden change in weather has also inspired me to add a few things onto my list of things to do. While driving home, I decided to add going to a hoedown and salsa dancing. Actually, I don’t think these new ideas had anything to do with the weather..it was probably because ‘(I’ve Had) The Time of My Life’ from dirty dancing was on the radio. ha.

i love all the things that come with cold weather. coats, sweaters, scarves…hot chocolate (with marshmallows of course), huddling under my blanket, warm fires. cold weather means that the holidays are approaching! I can’t wait until they start playing christmas music..it’s so cheery.

i’ve also been having this urge to dress up and go somewhere. i rarely dress up, i figure it would be fun.

hooray for cold weather! it’s probably going to be nonexistent next week. it is houston after all.

I remember when I was a child, how I yearned to receive toys for christmas and birthdays. The one thing that I absolutely despised as a gift were clothes. Of course…since I am indeed a female..that all changed with age, however, I think I have definitely digressed back to the good ol’ days.

new additions to the family:

i have two more dunnys and another labbit still sitting in the backseat of my car (stuff that gets thrown to the back of my car tends to stay there for a week)

prospective investment:

i no longer spend money on clothes..i’ve been wearing the same articles of clothing for the past 3 years, even with my weight gain. regardless of however many holes are accumulating on the backs of my jeans, how tight and unflattering my shirts fit, and how my pants/skirts have become increasingly snug…i refuse to buy new clothes until my current ones are completely unwearable. i’d much rather spend all of my money on toys.

i don’t wanna grow up cause i’m a toys-r-us kid!

bad timing + overpowering emotion = no bueno

make it stop please. i don’t want to deal with the outcome.

i dislike being scared. i don’t want to feel this way. ajsdkfljdakfljdakflj

i trust people too easily. i’ve known this about myself for quite some time. i know that i put too much faith into people, only to find that they let me down. i’m not perfect..i’m trying to correct it…but i can’t help but feel even more detached from who i am.

when you allow someone to be close to you..to let them see who you really are and hide nothing…you expose yourself. once you’ve been exposed, you expect them to honor that bond. you expect them to not jeopardize your trust.

i’m lost..and i don’t even know where or how to begin to resolve these issues or how to put the pieces back together. you’re supposed to feel safe around the ones you love. i guess that doesn’t always hold true.

for some odd reason…i was awakened by this strange and overpowering romantic mood? perhaps the beautiful weather had something to do with it but i just could not stop swooning over absolutely nothing.

i spent the entirety of the day listening to sappy love songs.

i’m weird.

i have

many

toys

and looking to buy more in the not so distant future.

i went to bed last night thinking about how much i miss having my close friends living near me.  i’ve made a lot of new friends…some of which who’ve become really close to me..but i miss having the ones that grew up with me..the ones that have seen me change and grow.

hopefully after graduation next year, a few will be moving back to texas. *sigh*